Instead I let my emotions get the best of me. I am to blame for the actions I have taken because I did not keep my cool. I have been less of the woman I should have been and more of the woman you cringe at the thought of interacting with. I have been vindictive, hateful, greedy and contemptuous. I apologize first and foremost to you, the man I committed my heart and life to forever.
It is shaded by hate, despair, and unbearable heartache. The time spent together is now almost a regretful past that has quickly been forgotten. The love that I thought would hold us together has passed. I was angry when I should have been grateful. Your feelings weren't my priority as they should have been as I pouted when I should have poured on more understanding. Unfortunately, I didn't understand that in order for that to be possible I had to give more than take and sometimes take when I didn't feel deserving. I withstood more hurt than I could fathom yet I always believed that the love we had could and would conquer all. I have given more grief than I understood. It became resentment, boredom, hurt and regret. We had beautiful daughters, an almost unbreakable friendship and a love that was deeper and unlike any other I've ever known.Īs time passed the feelings we had slowly changed. We shared the most incredible life together. It kept us together when nothing else could.
Looking back, I can clearly see the amazing power of love. I longed to have a family of my own and I was blessed to have experienced that in my short life. The time we spent together was beautiful and fulfilling for me. I remember our first kiss and the tingles that went through my lips, to the top of my head, to the tips of my toes and straight to my heart. We laughed, played and laughed some more. We talked for hours and shared our most intimate secrets. Even with this knowledge, I must speak from my heart.įrom the moment I heard your voice I knew that you were a special person. I expect my deepest feelings to be unimportant. I expect my words to be ignored and ridiculed. This is a letter I have choosen to write to my husband.
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